and by "god" i mean "you"
xoxo
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
stepping up to twenty-ten
thank you uriel, thank you jennifer hoffman
day nine - Accept
These past few years may have given us many reasons to doubt others' sincerity, love, integrity and commitment to us. We have to see others as they are before we can understand why we need to release them to find their own path and power, without our support, guidance and assistance. These can be bitter pills to swallow and leave us hurt, angry and sometimes resentful. Acceptance is one way in which we express unconditional love to others, and that means accepting them as they are, without judgment.
For today, give someone the gift of acceptance. See them as they are, acknowledge the value and healing of their journey, and allow them to follow it, no matter what it is, knowing it is right for them. See them as perfect, whole and complete, exactly as they are at this moment.
Because they are, and so are you.
day eight - Acknowledge Yourself
When the healing we extend to others who reject it we feel the pain on many levels. When life does not turn out as we want, we think we are unworthy. On an emotional level we feel powerless. Spiritual, we think our contracts are incomplete. Our mission is to bring light to the world and even if it takes a day, month or longer for the results to appear, we do move the energy and the results will manifest with divine timing. We can extend the healing by acknowledging our ourselves, no matter what appears to be happening around us. Recognize that you do the best you can, in every situation.
For day, acknowledge yourself as the teacher, healer, student and powerful being that you are. Everything you do is successful, every aspect of your being is important to your own mission of healing, growth and transformation. Find joy in the light and love you bring to the world. This is what you are here to do, for yourself and for humanity. Acknowledge each step on your journey because each one is equally important. No matter how much others do or do not accept you, acknowledge yourself a powerful, divine being who is worthy of acceptance. Release those who reject you and the healing you offer them, acknowledge their path and be at peace knowing that you have done the best you could and the rest is up to them.
day seven - Love
Love is what we all seek and too often we do not find it. We all have experiences of betrayal, abandonment and pain that can make us believe that we are not worthy of love, or that love is for others and not for us. No matter what has happened to us, we are worthy of love and whatever pain we have been through has been part of our own healing, and that of those we connect with. Our greatest and most powerful teachers are those who cause us the most pain and every experience contains a blessing.
Today, consider the most unlovable person in your life, the one who has caused you the most pain, and send them unconditional love. This is how you release them and yourself from whatever karma you have between you. Now send that same love to yourself because you deserve it and are worthy of it. Send love to everyone around you, all of the time. Become a source of love and light for others and it will be returned to you.
day six - Appreciate
In our work to heal ourselves and the world we can become so involved in the healing process and vested in the outcome that we take do not recognize the blessings that come to us every day. We believe we could have done more, faster, better, been more careful, observant or simply known better and this ignores the blessings of every step on our path. In order to be the light and love for the world, we have to begin with loving ourselves and our perfection and acknowledge the blessings we have.
For today, recognize one or more blessings in your life and appreciate them. They may be as basic as having food to eat, clean water, a safe place to sleep, and financial security. These are things you take for granted but for many people, these are luxuries. Your lessons are blessings too, although they may not feel that way, so be grateful for the learning and healing they gave you. Be grateful for each thing in your life, appreciate the joys and sorrows, the opportunities to learn which bring understanding. Make appreciation a daily practice and watch your blessings multiply.
day five - Intention
Intention is everything. It creates the energy for whatever is going to manifest for us. We set intentions for healing and then are surprised when our life is full of healing opportunities. Why not set an intention for joy, abundance, love and success? Setting an intention is how we create energetic openings for what we want to manifest in our life.
For today, set your intention for the wonderful things you want to create in 2010. Be bold, daring, courageous and outrageous. Set your intention for what you want, instead of what you think you can have. Remember that the Universe works with you, not for you. Set your intention for the biggest, most wonderful life experience you can imagine and then invite the Universe to surprise you with something better.
day four - Claim your Creativity
We think of creative people as those who create art or music, who write, knit, cook or sew. Creativity is not limited to what you can do with your hands, it is what you are and the way you create your reality. Each of us is creative, we are all creators and we use these abilities every day. Every aspect of your life is something you have created. You have a choice to be stuck in it, if it is something you do not like, or create something different.
For today, claim your creativity. You are a co-creator with Source and the earth is your canvas. What do you want your little piece of the earth to look like? It is in your hands and heart to create the life of your dreams. So create something wonderful and then enjoy the manifestation of your creative power.
day three - Move the Energy
Energy is a constantly moving force that surrounds us with the opportunity to create an unfolding reality. When we are flowing with this energy we feel energized, excited and have many opportunities available to us. When we are stuck, the energy stagnates and we feel depressed, sad and anxious. The energy is trying to move and we are in the way.
For today, move some energy. It is stuck because you have stopped moving forward in some area of your life. If you do not know where to start, begin with your physical environment. Clean a closet, straighten your desk, give away something that holds memories you no longer want to keep, give away things you no longer want or need. In your emotional environment, make a list of the emotions you want to be present in your life and set your intention on them. Pay attention to your thoughts and when the negative ones come up, replace them with something positive. Stay focused on moving the energy and it will flow in your life.
day two - Disconnect
Hidden within our energetic being are multitudes of cords that connect us to emotions, beliefs, thoughts, experiences and people. Everything you encounter in your life has an energetic connection to you. The cords that are based in fear siphon energy away from you. The ones that are grounded in love return energy to you. Fear-based cords are activated when it is time to disconnect and release them. This is a choice point for an important decision, do you return the emotion in kind or do you disconnect from it?
Each person who pushes your buttons is activating a cord you share with them. Instead of responding to them with your own fear, connect to your inner guidance and ask what cordis being activated and the lesson it corresponds to.Then set a conscious intention to disconnect the cord from that person, to send them unconditional love and see them in their perfection. As you disconnect from this energetic level, you allow the possibility for a connection at a higher vibration.
For today, practice disconnecting from every energy you do not want to be part of your life in 2010. Send love and light to the cords that bind you to fear and release them to complete those lessons. Set an intention for relationships and experiences that honor, enlighten, fulfill, respect and shower you with love.
day nine - Accept
These past few years may have given us many reasons to doubt others' sincerity, love, integrity and commitment to us. We have to see others as they are before we can understand why we need to release them to find their own path and power, without our support, guidance and assistance. These can be bitter pills to swallow and leave us hurt, angry and sometimes resentful. Acceptance is one way in which we express unconditional love to others, and that means accepting them as they are, without judgment.
For today, give someone the gift of acceptance. See them as they are, acknowledge the value and healing of their journey, and allow them to follow it, no matter what it is, knowing it is right for them. See them as perfect, whole and complete, exactly as they are at this moment.
Because they are, and so are you.
day eight - Acknowledge Yourself
When the healing we extend to others who reject it we feel the pain on many levels. When life does not turn out as we want, we think we are unworthy. On an emotional level we feel powerless. Spiritual, we think our contracts are incomplete. Our mission is to bring light to the world and even if it takes a day, month or longer for the results to appear, we do move the energy and the results will manifest with divine timing. We can extend the healing by acknowledging our ourselves, no matter what appears to be happening around us. Recognize that you do the best you can, in every situation.
For day, acknowledge yourself as the teacher, healer, student and powerful being that you are. Everything you do is successful, every aspect of your being is important to your own mission of healing, growth and transformation. Find joy in the light and love you bring to the world. This is what you are here to do, for yourself and for humanity. Acknowledge each step on your journey because each one is equally important. No matter how much others do or do not accept you, acknowledge yourself a powerful, divine being who is worthy of acceptance. Release those who reject you and the healing you offer them, acknowledge their path and be at peace knowing that you have done the best you could and the rest is up to them.
day seven - Love
Love is what we all seek and too often we do not find it. We all have experiences of betrayal, abandonment and pain that can make us believe that we are not worthy of love, or that love is for others and not for us. No matter what has happened to us, we are worthy of love and whatever pain we have been through has been part of our own healing, and that of those we connect with. Our greatest and most powerful teachers are those who cause us the most pain and every experience contains a blessing.
Today, consider the most unlovable person in your life, the one who has caused you the most pain, and send them unconditional love. This is how you release them and yourself from whatever karma you have between you. Now send that same love to yourself because you deserve it and are worthy of it. Send love to everyone around you, all of the time. Become a source of love and light for others and it will be returned to you.
day six - Appreciate
In our work to heal ourselves and the world we can become so involved in the healing process and vested in the outcome that we take do not recognize the blessings that come to us every day. We believe we could have done more, faster, better, been more careful, observant or simply known better and this ignores the blessings of every step on our path. In order to be the light and love for the world, we have to begin with loving ourselves and our perfection and acknowledge the blessings we have.
For today, recognize one or more blessings in your life and appreciate them. They may be as basic as having food to eat, clean water, a safe place to sleep, and financial security. These are things you take for granted but for many people, these are luxuries. Your lessons are blessings too, although they may not feel that way, so be grateful for the learning and healing they gave you. Be grateful for each thing in your life, appreciate the joys and sorrows, the opportunities to learn which bring understanding. Make appreciation a daily practice and watch your blessings multiply.
day five - Intention
Intention is everything. It creates the energy for whatever is going to manifest for us. We set intentions for healing and then are surprised when our life is full of healing opportunities. Why not set an intention for joy, abundance, love and success? Setting an intention is how we create energetic openings for what we want to manifest in our life.
For today, set your intention for the wonderful things you want to create in 2010. Be bold, daring, courageous and outrageous. Set your intention for what you want, instead of what you think you can have. Remember that the Universe works with you, not for you. Set your intention for the biggest, most wonderful life experience you can imagine and then invite the Universe to surprise you with something better.
day four - Claim your Creativity
We think of creative people as those who create art or music, who write, knit, cook or sew. Creativity is not limited to what you can do with your hands, it is what you are and the way you create your reality. Each of us is creative, we are all creators and we use these abilities every day. Every aspect of your life is something you have created. You have a choice to be stuck in it, if it is something you do not like, or create something different.
For today, claim your creativity. You are a co-creator with Source and the earth is your canvas. What do you want your little piece of the earth to look like? It is in your hands and heart to create the life of your dreams. So create something wonderful and then enjoy the manifestation of your creative power.
day three - Move the Energy
Energy is a constantly moving force that surrounds us with the opportunity to create an unfolding reality. When we are flowing with this energy we feel energized, excited and have many opportunities available to us. When we are stuck, the energy stagnates and we feel depressed, sad and anxious. The energy is trying to move and we are in the way.
For today, move some energy. It is stuck because you have stopped moving forward in some area of your life. If you do not know where to start, begin with your physical environment. Clean a closet, straighten your desk, give away something that holds memories you no longer want to keep, give away things you no longer want or need. In your emotional environment, make a list of the emotions you want to be present in your life and set your intention on them. Pay attention to your thoughts and when the negative ones come up, replace them with something positive. Stay focused on moving the energy and it will flow in your life.
day two - Disconnect
Hidden within our energetic being are multitudes of cords that connect us to emotions, beliefs, thoughts, experiences and people. Everything you encounter in your life has an energetic connection to you. The cords that are based in fear siphon energy away from you. The ones that are grounded in love return energy to you. Fear-based cords are activated when it is time to disconnect and release them. This is a choice point for an important decision, do you return the emotion in kind or do you disconnect from it?
Each person who pushes your buttons is activating a cord you share with them. Instead of responding to them with your own fear, connect to your inner guidance and ask what cordis being activated and the lesson it corresponds to.Then set a conscious intention to disconnect the cord from that person, to send them unconditional love and see them in their perfection. As you disconnect from this energetic level, you allow the possibility for a connection at a higher vibration.
For today, practice disconnecting from every energy you do not want to be part of your life in 2010. Send love and light to the cords that bind you to fear and release them to complete those lessons. Set an intention for relationships and experiences that honor, enlighten, fulfill, respect and shower you with love.
Monday, December 28, 2009
dock of the bay
buildings scrape for the first time again in some time
and piano players strum guitar with their cases lined with red velvet
and please, god bless.
what is it here that isn't anywhere else
that harvey and lawrence and jerry saw and ate.
haight-ashbury lined with sweaters, piercings and park
offering buds every time you look at anyone's eyes.
muir forest with reds and greens and earth so thick with life.
wharf markets and whole foods and poets shouting at traffic lights.
i saw a lady with a wheel chair lined with cats with slitted eyes.
she was asking for money and giving political advice.
lebanese coffee shops, buddha statues
hills looking into misted mountains with bridges and night shaded brothers.
you know where I am and i want you to find me.
everyone else kisses my neck but doesnt smell like you
or look into my eyes, touching slightly in conversation
as you play your truth about how to save your self, messiah.
you may always be there for now but i made to meet you blessing.
and mariners will be as they are until in light we can answer cryptic
harvests together, committed.
and piano players strum guitar with their cases lined with red velvet
and please, god bless.
what is it here that isn't anywhere else
that harvey and lawrence and jerry saw and ate.
haight-ashbury lined with sweaters, piercings and park
offering buds every time you look at anyone's eyes.
muir forest with reds and greens and earth so thick with life.
wharf markets and whole foods and poets shouting at traffic lights.
i saw a lady with a wheel chair lined with cats with slitted eyes.
she was asking for money and giving political advice.
lebanese coffee shops, buddha statues
hills looking into misted mountains with bridges and night shaded brothers.
you know where I am and i want you to find me.
everyone else kisses my neck but doesnt smell like you
or look into my eyes, touching slightly in conversation
as you play your truth about how to save your self, messiah.
you may always be there for now but i made to meet you blessing.
and mariners will be as they are until in light we can answer cryptic
harvests together, committed.
skeptic
it was not supposed to be and then it was
and then it was marvellous or incredible
but you would say, perhaps,
it was just as long as it was now.
you helped me realize that you should only continue past the destination
when you can taste the wonders there
and this is where the magic is, and pizza.
you do what you do understanding the stark necessity:
sons, or marriage, or business proposals;
cocktail parties for god's sake
(and i say this in sensitivity).
i know i share a moment with you
and laughing created and space
through space
and if i read something that awes me;
see breathtaking;
you may know about it
or never, but the me that was you then,
with you then,
will then know.
and then it was marvellous or incredible
but you would say, perhaps,
it was just as long as it was now.
you helped me realize that you should only continue past the destination
when you can taste the wonders there
and this is where the magic is, and pizza.
you do what you do understanding the stark necessity:
sons, or marriage, or business proposals;
cocktail parties for god's sake
(and i say this in sensitivity).
i know i share a moment with you
and laughing created and space
through space
and if i read something that awes me;
see breathtaking;
you may know about it
or never, but the me that was you then,
with you then,
will then know.
Inter-Continental
when the reins are surrendered
taking adamence with them in leather
it still drops
and the dust displaced
is incensual gravity.
the lore is beauty
if the eye beholds
and in this dimension of buzzing quiet
you will feel all that you know.
Orange and green were once the only color
and we are African
but the mind realized what it could do to hide us,
limping through reality.
and apples taste like floury apples
until it is just an apple
giving its talons.
taking adamence with them in leather
it still drops
and the dust displaced
is incensual gravity.
the lore is beauty
if the eye beholds
and in this dimension of buzzing quiet
you will feel all that you know.
Orange and green were once the only color
and we are African
but the mind realized what it could do to hide us,
limping through reality.
and apples taste like floury apples
until it is just an apple
giving its talons.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
the f**k it way
so i guess being in the flow is saying f**k it
and where does that take you
to a yummy slab of fair trade chocolate without any guilt
or to a street art income
which is a still an income
and you'll eventually get to india
i drink eight glasses of water
i smile and say thank you when i feel to
and where does that get me
still wanting something i think i need
whether or not its money, food, sex or things
and then
f**k it
i'll give it a try
or at least try and remember to
what harm could it be
a few hail mary's
(or is that hail maries).
maybe we could remind each other
and halve the responsibility
or double it
and where would that get us
together at least
and where does that take you
to a yummy slab of fair trade chocolate without any guilt
or to a street art income
which is a still an income
and you'll eventually get to india
i drink eight glasses of water
i smile and say thank you when i feel to
and where does that get me
still wanting something i think i need
whether or not its money, food, sex or things
and then
f**k it
i'll give it a try
or at least try and remember to
what harm could it be
a few hail mary's
(or is that hail maries).
maybe we could remind each other
and halve the responsibility
or double it
and where would that get us
together at least
Saturday, December 5, 2009
are we human, or are we dancer
another week gone like a train you cant catch, or a flight to your sister's wedding that leaves while you're stuck at jfk (snow delay).
another card pulled, relationship, answering a question in a bizarre esoteric advising that i may never grasp.
another chapter of doing nothing but being so preoccupied, pointless right.
when you finally know
be it where to go
who to love
what to fucking contribute to this existence
whatever is sitting at the controls likes to cocktail things up a bit
and throw meteors and mountains, and red seas, at your heart
the storm rolled in during drosha and the sky turned a incriminating black.
winds pushed us toward the smells of shabbes and just as we neared the birds were released cleansing us silly in ecstatic sparkle and skin hugging clothes. ah
disillunsionment with yourself must precede enlightenment
well thank you
labour of love
and so you are there
when the tornado swirls around knocking everything you think you love off its kilter and you remain still
when the dogs are barking and your assignment is due and the racket is a pure orchestration of peace
incorporation of nothingness
remember, yes?
another card pulled, relationship, answering a question in a bizarre esoteric advising that i may never grasp.
another chapter of doing nothing but being so preoccupied, pointless right.
when you finally know
be it where to go
who to love
what to fucking contribute to this existence
whatever is sitting at the controls likes to cocktail things up a bit
and throw meteors and mountains, and red seas, at your heart
the storm rolled in during drosha and the sky turned a incriminating black.
winds pushed us toward the smells of shabbes and just as we neared the birds were released cleansing us silly in ecstatic sparkle and skin hugging clothes. ah
disillunsionment with yourself must precede enlightenment
well thank you
labour of love
and so you are there
when the tornado swirls around knocking everything you think you love off its kilter and you remain still
when the dogs are barking and your assignment is due and the racket is a pure orchestration of peace
incorporation of nothingness
remember, yes?
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
to be, in love
The speckles in the sky
Want nothing else but you
So soon
But yet can’t wait
A guilt almost worth it.
United seems too desirous
Too now
Too pleasing
To wait for right
And respect in You.
Lessons tease
Emotion and ecstasy.
I’ve forgotten and long for teaching
But how can so many hours
Be hummed in passion
When emptying is now
And impulsive.
This is what it means
To be
In love
Want nothing else but you
So soon
But yet can’t wait
A guilt almost worth it.
United seems too desirous
Too now
Too pleasing
To wait for right
And respect in You.
Lessons tease
Emotion and ecstasy.
I’ve forgotten and long for teaching
But how can so many hours
Be hummed in passion
When emptying is now
And impulsive.
This is what it means
To be
In love
to be, continued
As much as my mind governs senses
To keep me following numbed
That I that is, that am,
Creates moments of reconnect.
Seen and Saw
Victory only comes after battle
And I wonder if peace is a constant goal
Or where it just is.
I know where is best for I
And all I need
Is constant redevotion
To develop desire
Of place, of people
Of this ONE.
To keep me following numbed
That I that is, that am,
Creates moments of reconnect.
Seen and Saw
Victory only comes after battle
And I wonder if peace is a constant goal
Or where it just is.
I know where is best for I
And all I need
Is constant redevotion
To develop desire
Of place, of people
Of this ONE.
since we swang
Naming comes again but this
I haven’t been able to explain for too long
And don’t want to ever again.
Lost is living
And freedom from the saddled racetrack.
I want to rock on my feet
With my life balancing on my head
And my love flitting around me.
My floating.
This is it
And wherever Ed may find me.
The mosquitoes buzz without landing
Making music in the croaking night.
My cold feet remind me of the ground
And rubies touch gently down
But I forever stare at the skies
Which have become my home
And am the bliss that follows me.
People can read and scoff in fear
Or disbelief which I agree
But this INABILITY has engulfed me
With Mine
And fingers web connecting.
There is no more beginning nor end
But simple NOW
And simply nice.
The pen is propriety
The Power of Know
Is Yes.
I haven’t been able to explain for too long
And don’t want to ever again.
Lost is living
And freedom from the saddled racetrack.
I want to rock on my feet
With my life balancing on my head
And my love flitting around me.
My floating.
This is it
And wherever Ed may find me.
The mosquitoes buzz without landing
Making music in the croaking night.
My cold feet remind me of the ground
And rubies touch gently down
But I forever stare at the skies
Which have become my home
And am the bliss that follows me.
People can read and scoff in fear
Or disbelief which I agree
But this INABILITY has engulfed me
With Mine
And fingers web connecting.
There is no more beginning nor end
But simple NOW
And simply nice.
The pen is propriety
The Power of Know
Is Yes.
evening aarti
The ground shimmers
And tearing my gaze I’m surrounded
By hued shadows
Interrupted by electricity.
The wind roars deafening –
I am embraced by It and crickets.
My shoes squeak and kick soil
As my right foot sickles outward a little.
Boys played cricket on the train-tracked field
To the sun’s setting
And bicylcle bystanders.
I left them now as I left them then
Mezmerized in pages of dates and photographs.
The mosquitoes threaten now
And nets are pulled
Before hair is brushed
And soiled clothes folded neatly.
And tearing my gaze I’m surrounded
By hued shadows
Interrupted by electricity.
The wind roars deafening –
I am embraced by It and crickets.
My shoes squeak and kick soil
As my right foot sickles outward a little.
Boys played cricket on the train-tracked field
To the sun’s setting
And bicylcle bystanders.
I left them now as I left them then
Mezmerized in pages of dates and photographs.
The mosquitoes threaten now
And nets are pulled
Before hair is brushed
And soiled clothes folded neatly.
it had to be you
I no longer crave isolation,
Regeneration alone.
I long for your harmony
For your hands and your sigh
And the wondrously moulded puzzle peace
You keep tied to your heart.
I finally found truth
After wandering and parched.
This is home and abundance.
What magic is budding
And extending its nectar
For little hungry pollinators
To spread further than we can dream.
Infinity is possible
Divinity is proof.
שמע ישראל יה אלוהנו יה אחד
Regeneration alone.
I long for your harmony
For your hands and your sigh
And the wondrously moulded puzzle peace
You keep tied to your heart.
I finally found truth
After wandering and parched.
This is home and abundance.
What magic is budding
And extending its nectar
For little hungry pollinators
To spread further than we can dream.
Infinity is possible
Divinity is proof.
שמע ישראל יה אלוהנו יה אחד
the silence after is exhausted
Following crescended chaos
it lingers tingling
as matted bodies slow breath
and shiver from aftershock
stiffened to move.
the skin is red as divinity strikes surface
and from this, everything.
pleasure is exeriencing eden,
a paradise lost in lie,
fear and poison.
can the act of making love sustain
truth
xoxo
Following crescended chaos
it lingers tingling
as matted bodies slow breath
and shiver from aftershock
stiffened to move.
the skin is red as divinity strikes surface
and from this, everything.
pleasure is exeriencing eden,
a paradise lost in lie,
fear and poison.
can the act of making love sustain
truth
xoxo
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